There comes a time in life when you get to the crossroads. The crossroads is that point in life where things are about to change and you are going to have to make a choice. I feel that we get to this point many times in life and if I’m being completely honest I haven’t always made the right choice.
Sometimes what you want in life isn’t what God wants you to have. You often search the world trying to find your own happiness without thinking about the will of God. For that reason we choose the wrong path. I have spent 27 years doing what I wanted to do for me and it hasn’t made me happy. Even when I got what I wanted I wasn’t happy. When I started living for God I became the happiest I had ever been but I also became the loneliest. Doing the right thing is always the most popular choice that’s why when you are doing right you are going to feel alone, you may even be alone. But no matter what you must keep going.
The devil plays on our emotions. He gives you exactly what you want when you want it to distract you. We as Christians we must never accept the easy way out. Yes things will get harder but you will get stronger if stay in the word of God. You must be constantly aware of the image you are portraying to the rest of the world. You must remember anything worth having is worth waiting for.
It’s hard trying to make it in this world for everybody. Everyone has there own demons to face. Then there are the people who are always looking for ways to hold you back or discourage you instead of lifting you up. From jealous friends to unsupportive family members and then there’s just the plain old haters. You are going to have to go through to hell to see heaven. You are going to have to climb some mountains and lose some friends.
I’ve realized you can’t allow how other people feel about you to affect your life. You have to do whatever’s in your heart (as long as it lines up with God’s will) whether you get someone to say amen or not. Some people aren’t going to get on board with what you are doing until you take off. You must believe in your dreams and vision even if people don’t, even when you can’t see it clearly. You have got to have heart and some fight in you because you are going to get knocked down but you have to get back up.
I know where I’ve been and there is no going back. No more controlling men, no more empty pockets, no more crying, no more struggling, no more just surviving i want to live for once. I could write a book on what I’ve been through and what I’ve done that I’d be too ashamed to read. I look back on my life and think God must have something more for me because i should’ve been dead and gone. As long as there is still breathe in your body you have to grind until you get everything you want in life. Failure should never be an option. Staying in one spot for to long should make you uncomfortable. There are levels to this and you should want to advance.
When all you have ever known is bad it’s hard to notice when something good comes around. I speak from experience I have been hurt and disappointed by so many people that I have put my absolute trust in. I have lost faith in people but I have gained faith in God. You have to trust that God has something better for you, someone better for you. Its easy to lose hope, hope for life or hope for love. It’s easy to start to feel unworthy of happiness. It’s easy to quit. Like they say death is easy life is hard. You can’t give up on yourself no matter how hard things get because I promise you are closer than you think. God gives everybody a lane you just have to find yours and stay in it.
When you take your eyes off of Jesus you allow yourself to be distracted by things and people who can’t offer you half of the things he can. The world will make things look good but when you step to the other side the grass is never greener. You can do bad all by yourself but with Jesus anything is possible. There is no one coming to rescue you in life you have to learn to be your own hero. God already sent his son to save you years ago now its your turn to do your part. Don’t give up you still have some fight left.
© 2015 Aquila Taite
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.